Forced Christianity

So I do recognize myself as a good Christian girl, no matter what I do find the time to pray, no matter where I am, what I'm doing, I do see it important to do so.
I have my daily chat with God and tell him how I'm doing and either am thanking him for something I learned or asking him if I could possibly have something that I've been needing or wanting and he's helped me out a whole lot. I do the sign of the cross whenever I'm going out and yeah I have been caught but hey it doesn't really matter, its like my thing but I mean my parents, esp my mom acts like if I'm in a religious drought. I just had a sit down bible reading with them and everything was directed like " Oh, when your this, read that, and did you know this? " and I'm just like yeah. I know that. And I know that verse. And I understand what its saying. The whole time I'm just like wishing I could explain how they just don't understand. I'm not up for publicizing OH I LOVE JESUS AND HES MY LOVER. I mean, yeah he is haha he does more for me then my actual boyfriends EVER have. I'm pretty sure I've been in more near car accidents or just random shit that has happened where there was a huge possibility of being hurt but somehow I can out of it all unscathed. I won't criticize if someone is like that but I feel like my relationship with him is more personal and that is what feels better for me.
They are also trying to find a church closer so I can go to but I've already been to the one that they pretty much chose and I've already told them I just don't like it. Its a pretty popular one, is on TV and is like HUGE with screens everywhere and its own radio station or something and that's just not for me. Like I've said before, I like my relationship with Jesus and God to be more personal, we've been conned by a church when I was younger and just WILL NOT let that happen again. Oh and my dad tries to make it sound better by saying that the kids meet up and play music all night Friday-Sunday from 10 to 2am. I just walked away but I just wish i would have had the guts to just say what was on my mind. Personally, I don't do well with kids I meet from other churches just because of what happened in Plainfield and I'm okay with it, I don't need friends that would make me feel like I have to publicize my Christianity. Even if they wouldn't, what hurts is that I feel like the only way that I could go out until two is if I did that and I don't like that. It really pisses me off.
My dad cut bible session short and I felt ten times better.
Mom got mad though.
I felt relieved.