I say this at least a few times a month

I need to feel better asap.
This whole being sick thing is just not fair.
Plus a bump on the back of my neck? my tonsils&glands are super swollen.
just grrrrreat!




But somethings really are great.
I love it when friends stick up for you :)

What a good group of guys.
Seriously, A+ dudes.
I still want to call Shane sweet and sour but hey, I'll try not to.
Seeing them in 11 days at the Pi show.

Rowan on Friday with Breona, I'm excited.



I think my mom and I ran into a zombie today? Not sure.
Ah! but I finally found someone that loves all that scary movie/ gross zombie shit too! Steffen aka Steffan. Cool shit.

I'm a happy

little girl.

:)

Seriously stop.

You became the biggest pussy I've ever met.
No chance mister, your not my type anymore.
Guido shit? Wtf dude, what happened to the kid who would sing story of the year at the top of his lungs with me? I guess he disappeared last winter break.

Peace.


And please don't think of this as me being sad about it, I stopped caring a looong time ago. Its just because I know you'll see this and I don't really want you to reply, there's no discussion on this.

Leaving

Boston. The World.
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:D

Thank you

for the surprise visit, it got me really happy and excited.



And wanna hear something kinda.. strange I guess?
It all started with you. This whole liking this band/artist/whatever you wanna call it.. this fascination we have going on started with you. You sent me a song by him that you thought you would make me think and it actually did, I don't think you ever realized how I much I do value your opinion and/or thoughts but I took that songs and couldn't stop listening and just thought about it. Now Breona and I are going to see him Monday and although he's not doing his songs, we're still really excited. A few of his songs are on my mixed cds and they're probably my favorite to just sing along with and blast.

Thank you.
Your a pretty kick ass person, A in my book.

Packing

things up is getting pretty easy, deciding what to wear on what day is going to be the hard problem.

Leaving for Boston in a few days with Breona, Stephen and Steven. No clue how we're fitting our stuff in there, car is gonna be pretty packed but I cleaned it earlier so we have some room to stretch.

The boys are only going to be with us for Boston unless they feel like coming to Philly or the many shows.

Paul Baribeau is Monday, I got the address and everything. Parking at Crow and heading to it, I can't wait.

Gabriel the Marine.
The Title/ A love like Pi on Saturday.
Less Than Jake as well.
Rock and Roll party.


I love my best friends, and can't wait to road trip with them :)

Second

Chill sesh - Friday morning before work in Westfield. I gotta get some last minute things. My stomach is in knots arggg haha.

Fuck

Since Florida is a failure I plan on seeing whatever else is possible but I'm opening it up farther now. I want the city for a night, I want the country for a night, I want to shop. Shop until I'm angry I got so much I return half of it. I want Pennsylvania, Massachusetts, New York, more of Jersey, Maryland, ANYWHERE. I just want to be.

I also don't plan on going online until I get back.
If I have to see " fiojhrioshgif IN FLORIDA ", I may hit someone.

A quick overview

I really like the bands he showed me.
A whole lot.
If I could have gone over last night to watch movies I would, it sounded so good and I just wanted to chill again.
Can't wait to go out to eat again.
Oh! And the shoe is sold out, sorry. I checked already.
Too old.

Hockey bores me. Please no more fights, I already said " If you get hurt, I might get a little sad ".. DON'T expect that, I didn't even see it coming. I love the funny/ stupid texts, the silly smiles at your job. I may even get bummed if you quit, so please don't. Our attempts to hang outside of the mall have resulted in a failure and I'm sorry about last time, I really did want to come and visit but I was running late and I was really looking forward to the show. :/
Too old.



Or am I just seeing things weirdly? I don't know, I've always been a fan of the same age but there have been a few that have slipped past and I'm making exceptions? I'm not liking this.

I miss my old friend.
I hate the fact that due to a stupid mistake of getting together and dating that we lost a 4 year friendship. I hate the fact that I saw your mom at the mall today and she didn't even recognize me, that was probably the worst part. I miss her and I miss your bird and dog and the old days and the millions of sleepovers at mikes and the petersens and all that.
I hate that all this happened and your a wreck.

" I couldn't stand to see him, he couldn't even look at anyone in the eyes "


Whenever I hear Bubbly by Colbie Caillat I just get angry cause I actually cared.. I don't usually let myself care but I opened myself up and you told all our friends about us.. I hate that you did that. I hate that we dated. It was all a mistake, I would rather have kept my friend then a stupid boyfriend. I hate that seeing your mom made me think of all this.

____



I need more sushi time with Kevin.

Spring Break

Get here already.
Oh you too check from the government.

I'll be in " Maryland " with Breona and then * crosses fingers * Florida.

Oh and my neck is looking more and more like it has hickeys on it when in fact its the fact that i cant stop scratching. ughh. fucking dry skin.

: )

Thank you for taking me out for sushi today, it was my first time and I liked it a whole lot. I still don't know if I'm down for whatever else it was you want to take me to, I'm not a big fan of sloppy eating but we'll see. Thank you for being patient with me taking forever to eat and ordering three times so I wouldn't feel alone. I want to hang out again and watch some of those movies we talked about.

I'll try to get over the ciggs and the whole " I don't like dogs " statement.
Maybe you'll like Snowball and change your mind? We come as a two for one deal.

So frustrated

So damn frustrated.
Fuck you for taking things wrong and ruining what could have been a fun break TWICE. Fuck that. I'm so angry, I just want to figure out WHAT THE FUCK is going to happen. I swear, I'm tryin to make the best out of it but come the FUCK on, I already had everything planned. Blood is fucking boilinggg.

And as tiny as this thing is, it pisses me off a whole lot. Tomorrow should be going down to see a friend but instead I'm just going straight to the show. Possibly alone. Again. To the same place that made going to shows by myself hell. The place where I stood outside crying because I didn't know where my stuff was, I had no gas and my phone was dying. Fabuloussssss. Why am I not going to see a friend you may ask? Well because this person insists that I go see his friend whos just not for me. Its not that I hate him, I just don't like his personality and I don't like the fact that my friend pretty much just wants me to hit on and " boost his ego " FUCK THAT. There were two girls that wanted him last time I was there so why the fuck do I have to do it? I went through that whole talking-to-his-friend thing at Kean but at least I cared about him, this kid.. Ugh. Its just annoying how he won't see me and it just be us, it HAS to be with noname. I just want to be with my friend, I'm tired of being stuck with people that I don't like, when its time for fun I should be able to choose who I hang with.

I'm really nervous about tomorrow, like legit nervous. It was a shady area, with creepy people and I just don't know what to do. All I'm positive about is that I'm still going.



Oh. and I HATE when you complain about others and how none of your friends want to hang out or no one ever picks up and all that yet I ALWAYS do. No matter where I am, no matter what I'm doing, doesn't even matter what time, you sometimes call at like random times like 5am and I STILL pick up. I hold you close to my heart bud and I don't like feeling like you hold others there. Fucking CAN'T STAND THAT. I probably won't tell you for a while.


So if I'm usually only emotional when I'm on the rag, then why can't I stop crying?