Today

How I love you so.

Did spectacular in communications today, I'm way ready for this test.
Paycheck was way more then I expected :)
Its nice and sunny with no clouds.
So far I haven't had to stop at ONE red light and I've been driving since this morning.
Getting Taco Bell later
Edison Fall festival
Hoboken tonight

Oh. And I have an interview on Wednesday for the internship.

She's scared of flies. I found her in the closet haha.

My heart is fluttering ugh.
You make my stomach turn ugh.
One of my neighbors has a VW Van, I want to steal it.



I just want you to be happy.
Theres so much I want to tell you, it will all come out eventually.

My stomach

is doing cartwheels.


Tonight was great though, I love moments like this

Theres this cute boy that goes to MCC. He's tall, curly/messy hair and brunette.
I've seen him TWICE on campus. What the heck.

Come back cute boy :(

Today was a sleeping in kinda day. Hell its still a sleeping kinda day but I won't.
Its study time, cleaning time and doggy sit Bita time.
Work is gonna take a backseat, this is gonna be a good ass semester, I feel it.
Actually work doesn't have to, I'm just gonna work two or three days out of the week but I'm gonna work 9.45 - 9.45. Maybe a weekend. Maybe. Its easier to get bigger paychecks working less cause it makes gives it a smaller opportunity to not reach quota. More days = bigger quota.

I'm gonna make it work and I can't wait until its finally shown.


Oh. PS. my mom hates you. HAH she doesn't hate anyone but you :p

wow.

I don't have words. I wish you were happy, I really do.



anyway.
i love my best friends.
i love last night.
i love everything about last night.

Operation get Jeffrey fired worked.
But I didnt do anything, I was in Florida.
Jeffrey was just being his usual shitty self, he got himself fired.
Anywhoooo its my first day back tomorrow.

I miss the little lizards running around everywhere, even on top of my feet but I like walking on grass.

Everyone has been hearing weird stuff around me, I don't like it.
Somewhat scared of the dark.. well not the dark but what could be in it. Call me childish I know, its just something I don't like.


All about free shows. Maybe I'll just work all day Saturday and not Friday. We'll see.
I'm really looking forward to Colombia in January.
Everything is looking up and I couldn't be happier.

Update:

-School has started. I'm running around trying to keep everything in line, so far, so good.
-Everything I said about Little K I stick to. I miss her.
-Home is.. well home.
-I love my friends. Seriously alot, I really want them to realize how much they do mean to me. Somehow I think they get it.
-Stevens on Thursday. Hangin with Barnes. Maybe Calvin Harris.

If I can think up anything else I will.

Oh, and I don't like to listen to your stuff, makes me miss you a little you fucker.

Dear Little K

I don't know where to start, I've just had a million things running through my head since I heard the news.

Saw you on the rode behind work and I swerved into the parking lot, I couldn't let you just be there on your own. Took me forever so I went home but made sure to come back for you, i didnt want you to feel alone and forgotten. So i went back with my parents and we finally got you. you got so close for me to hold you and i brought you back home with me. you were so little you barely had nails and the smallest teeth i've ever seen. so little we gave you milk until you didnt want anymore. you went into the bathroom downstairs and i checked up on you every few hours. you climbed onto my lap when i would come in but then i would have to leave to go upstairs. all i wanted was to spend time with you and watch you sleep. in the morning i tried to look for any place to receive you, i only wanted the best. you finally fell asleep curled up in a ball on snowballs bed then my lap. i never had that feeling, not even with snowball, she attacked everyone, including me the first year of her life. you slept when you were with me, it was indescribable. introduced you to craig and he fell in love with you too. we tried to bring you to the edison shelter but it was a no go so we went on the search for the sewarrn shelter and found it. it was a nice place and as much as it hurt to give you to them, i felt good about it. it was a nice shelter and they immediately gave you food and milk and wiped you down. that was the last time i saw you.

my manager said that you were doing fine and great. that was the day before i left for florida.
i wish i could have seen you.
its not fair.
i keep replaying us meowing for the first time, how could such a thing happen to you?
theres so many questions i want to ask, did someone hold your paw, did someone scratch you beind your ears as this all happened? i can't stop crying lil k, i just wanted you to be loved. i wanted you to be happy. i wanted you to be with a loving home, with cat toys and wonderfulness and just the best for you. i really tried to find a home for you when you were with me. i'm sorry i couldnt find one. i wish you could forgive me. please just show me you're happy somewhere. i don't know lil k, you got into my heart.

rest in peace baby.
i hope to see you soon someday.




it better happen with cats and bunnies and every animal.
they should all get a chance.
<3