I won't lie

It hurts.
Not much but it stings.
I definitely sabotaged a whole lot of what could have been which is the reason we were never definite and I'm sorry.
Sometimes I am curious as to what could have happened but its all in the past now.
I don't think it hurts cause I miss you or cause there is any attachment or feeling left but because at one point I wished that I was the one in those pictures or I could have had that formal meeting of your parents we spoke about.

Its all in the past though.
Just had to get it all off my chest.
I'm like a blank piece of paper now.
Feels good.