Dear father,

Sometimes people can't sleep at ten like you do.
Sometimes they don't get tired until one or two.
Stop trying to force a bedtime on me.
AND please take off that thing you did where my internet shuts down at midnight on weekends so " I can sleep like a normal person "


Va Beach needs to come soon.
That weekend has so much potential.

ON A BRIGHTER SIDE

I love spending everyday with one of my friends.
Keeps me happy and sane.

Now where the fuck are the cute boys in Jesery? Shitt

I won't lie

It hurts.
Not much but it stings.
I definitely sabotaged a whole lot of what could have been which is the reason we were never definite and I'm sorry.
Sometimes I am curious as to what could have happened but its all in the past now.
I don't think it hurts cause I miss you or cause there is any attachment or feeling left but because at one point I wished that I was the one in those pictures or I could have had that formal meeting of your parents we spoke about.

Its all in the past though.
Just had to get it all off my chest.
I'm like a blank piece of paper now.
Feels good.

My mom is right next to me reading things that she swear will make my heart better.
They know nothing.
I want to take it from her hands and rip it in half.


EVERYONE swears they know what I'm going through. Yeah fucking right.


But they want me to enroll into yoga.. that's the only thing I'm down with.

I want

things to get better.


Show me something new.

Drake

So good.

Please

Let my neighbor be okay.

Love Vivi.

5

Water bottles so far today.
Back to the rice and beans routine.
I'm still at 122lbs.

Warped Tour is tomorrow, I'm going with Kiki.
Haha any chance to be in Camden I'm takin it.
Also busy on Sunday so oceanport was out of the question.
There are so many bands I want to go see my insides are doing cartwheels.
I've seen All Time Low about .. 7 times? Yeahhhh. Well at least they put on a good show.
Also really looking forward to seeing Silverstein and Bayside. They were all I ever listened to back in 2005 and still love em.

Saturday morning not sure what I'm doing yet, gonna hang with Steve at Garden State Plaza. We're supposed to go eat and watch a movie I'm pretty sure. Nervous? Yes. Why? Not sure.

I'm ready to goooo.

will SOMEONE explain to me how 3oh3! got popular?
im trying to understand but so far, no luck.

I'm excited for this weekend.. whatever the hell it may bring.

I have a date? Well its a " hang out " but we're going out to eat and movies so I don't know. BUT I'm really excited? Yes yes yes.

Possibly Albany, NY
or Warped Tour.

Depends. Either or are great.

I can't wait to get better, there are so many things I have planned.
Life is going to be wonderful.




Oh and as horrible as this sounds, I still can't wait till you both break up.
I've heard nothing but bad stories about it and you're band needs new material.



I love love love my dog.
Snowball is the best.

i miss

my friend. I haven't seen her in a while.
2007 was a great summer.


I'm getting my tonsils out at 10am tomorrow.
Finally.

Happy Fifth

If it was a few months back maybe things would be different? Maybe I wouldn't have been so hard headed cause lets be truthful, I would come visit right now if I could.

The little things get to me the most.
I want to tell you the truth, its just when I have the chance I just don't.
I mean I have told you bits and pieces but I don't feel that I can just go to you about it, and I know we already had this talk once where you said that you're there but I don't see it.

I just wish you would start inviting me over more often like you used to.