Sometimes I wonder

How stupid can I really be?

I fall for someone I haven't even MET yet but when there is someone with potential I don't give them the time of day. Yeah I make my day or night or whatever free JUST in case I feel like it but then last second I fill it up with something I can't get out of. I'm just stupid I guess. Maybe I hope that something will work out in the end with the person from far away but who am I kidding, it probably won't. I'm just not lucky like that. I don't get the people I want. I bitch and complain about it too but if I guess if I was a bit less of a bitch and picky I could shut up and find someone decent but I don't. Whatever. I'm going to see him in December so we'll see what happens. As horrible as this sounds I doubt its going to work out in my favor.

Besides that, life is so good.

I admitted to the brothers in my group in English that I prejudged them and didn't like them until we were forced to work together. It feels good to let things out like that. They joked around about it and everything is good now. I'm so happy about that, I like when we work together then with my old " clique " and I'm happy they left theirs. Work is better that way, and class is way more fun. I'm the suga momma in the group apparently and I don't think I would want it any other way.